Friday, September 30, 2005

should i keep 'indian star'?

Two days ago, i suddenly have this urge to keep a tortoise as companion :D. Knowing that weeliem has some, i consulted him.


weeliem's indian star :p so cute

To my surprise, his lil' tortoise costed him RM100! I didn't expect it to be so expensive. So now, i'm still considering of getting one or not. He said, he could get one for me at RM80. His tortoise

RM80 for a tortoise? Should i or should i not?



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me and lil' indian star :p

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

CASH ATTACK!



.... I just joined this contest.
...hoping to get some $$$ for my KK trip next month. *grin*

BIRTHDAYssss again.. :p

Happy birthday BEELIE, :p
We're goin out to celebrate for her tonight.. wheee~ girls night outing again :p

Yesterday, 27th Sept was CANMY's birthday..
Canmy is my friend of 18 years!!! wow!
I've know her more than half of my life..
She'll be having her birthday party this weekend in Taiping..
yay! I'm goin back to Taiping this Saturday..
miss my lil' peaceful hometown like crazy..
haven't been back for quite some time..
maybe it's time to meet up with my 'loved' ones?




.. looking forward for the reunion ...

Friday, September 23, 2005

happy belated birthday, roomie :p

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21.09.05 was when my roomie turns 23. This girl has showed me the real meaning of friendship. Looking at the way she treats her friends, I'm really thankful for a friend/roomie like her.(tho at times there may be conflicts :p) She has very much been a part of my life. Especially since I moved to JB after F5. I do not have much friends there. She was kind enough bring me around jb and introducing me to her friends even though we just met three years back. Then, my life in JB has never been the same again. :p

she's also the ONLY girl that i've come across who, can SLEEP as much as she wants and WATCH as many series as she likes but STILL scores EXTREMELY well in exam


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When the clock struck 12am on that night, we celebrated her birthday with simplicity .

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The next day, we gave her a treat at TGI Friday. It was our first time there. And we really had a lot of fun.

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The food was good. So is the atmosphere and the crews. :p
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In TGIF, the crews help us to give our friend a memorable birthday, by joining in the bash. They treated the birthday girl an ice-cream and sang a birthday song plus 'we will rock you-TGIF-birthday-version'. I think they sang the song practically more than 10 times that day, as many people celebrate birthday there. My roomie was made to stand on the chair to give a thank you speech.

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Then, they were forced to blow the candle without bending down.

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crazy bunch of girls who likes to take photos :p

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Natala and 'Marie' ..

I stared at the screen for a while as i read porn star part 7 (and i know he watches over me) from Natala's blog. I was speechless.. and i was in tears as i continued reading part 8

A story of her friendship with a porn star..

....being that this story is one that is deep, messy, and emotional, this is simply the start of a story of my friendship with a porn star.

....we'd stay up, and talk, we'd fall asleep next to one another.
we were the oddest of friends.
we would walk to meals together, laughing, talking, and people would stare.
no one really understood why i was friends with her.
but really, i never understood why marie was friends with me.

porn star part 1
porn star part 2 (bathroom photo's and plato)
porn star part 3 (emergency room nights)
porn star part 4 (500 dollars)
porn star part 5 (white pill)
porn star part 6 (the e-mail)
porn star part 7 (and i know he watches over me)
part 8 (seeing jesus through a porn star)






*got the links from jason

Monday, September 19, 2005


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Sunday, September 18, 2005

.: So you would come :.

So you would come
Russel Fragar

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

Friday, September 16, 2005

Happy Belated Birthday, Yen Li :p

Yesterday was Yen Li's birthday, we decided to celebrate for her in Secret Recipe, Alamanda. Unfortunately we didn't have any transport to do so. Gimhan graciously lend us his car :p. Thanks gim .

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Left: Our lunch at Secret Recipe
Right : Zaaiyuen (ah mar) driving Gim's car


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the birthday girl, Yen Li, seems to be enjoying her cake :p

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we enjoyed our cakes too.

We ordered 4 cakes : Chocolate Indulgence, Americano, Orange cheese and Walnut Brownies
and the Secret Recipe famous Tom Yam Kung (Tom Yam Prawn):p which is really really delicious.


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the cheeky zaaiyuen(ah mar) and chia :p


One tom yam shared by everyone :p

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Zaaiyuen (ah mar),me ,yenli and sinkah (katak)

Thursday, September 15, 2005

meet orangie.. ;p

ahahhaa... i find this too farnie.. i think i haf to post it...
i was looking for a name for my adopted tiger.. so i asked gim for suggestions

me: ehh..gimme a name for tiger
gim: a name for tiger????

me: tiger l
me: a name for my tiger
me: i want to adopt a tiger
me: adopt a tiger???
gim: stripes!
gim: how to adopt tiger?
me: urmm.. besides tat?
me: wat program
me: ohh..
gim: i also wanrt
me:
gim: belang
me: in ur blog ar?
me:
me: dunwan belang
gim: how to adopt one?
me: http://bunnyherolabs.com/adopt/
gim: pay how much?
me: free one la
me: put on the blog one
me:
me: u tot real one??
gim: bodoh!
me: so stupid!
gim: i thought some environment conservation programme


ahaha.. i couldn't stop laughing.. =))

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Please do not return again..

Surprised.
Surprised..
There's no cramp or any discomfort this month.

I've been preparing myself mentally and physically these few days.. for the few hours of pain i thought i might suffered. I've even prayed for lesser pain.

I was scared. So afraid of the pain, considering what i'd endured for the past few months.

Last month, i almost collapsed while i was queuing to pay for the painkiller and a bottle of mineral water. I couldn't wait anymore, I swallowed two painkillers before i even pay for it. Sensing that something is wrong, i asked my friend to Q up for me to pay for the pills as i ran to the washroom where i vomited.

Gosh, I was in agony..

Two months ago, i need to take half day off.. so that i could battle with the pain in the comfort of my bed... (most of the time i just sleep :p)

but this month.. i'm thankful for there's no pain.
I wish that these pains would just leave me alone foreeeeeeveerrrrr...

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

post no 100 :D


me and my lengchai brother :p

It's really weird how sometimes we could be filled with a storm of sadness and ... then.. joy at same time.. or maybe after some short interval of time...

Emotions are really complex...
Human are complex being..

For the past weeks.. my color was blue..
i think today it's pink :p

Am i making any sense here?
;p


me and my amazing mum :p

Monday, September 12, 2005

disillusioned

disillusioned.
reality.
douleur..
choices.
idle.


love..?
hope..?
grace...?

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Trackback :D

Was curious about how does 'trackback' works :D , so i'm just linking this post to Instrument No 3 : Bangsar Lutheran Church . It's about our first visit to BLC :D

Testing..

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

my dinner rendezvous

3 girls..
from 3 different countries
3 different religions

A Cambodian Buddhist.
A Chinese Moslem.
A Malaysian Christian.

But all three are Chinese.

These are the people I went dinner with yesterday.I just thought it's interesting that our path may crossed eventhough we are from different countries,different cultural and different religions :)

Monday, September 05, 2005

a moment of silence..

I really do not know how to response to the Hurricane Katrina catastrophe in New Orleans.
It is heart-wrenching when i read the news today. Many were are still stranded/unsaved even after six days of the disaster.

Louisiana official haunted by drowned woman

WASHINGTON (Reuters) - A New Orleans official was overcome by emotion on national television on Sunday when describing how a woman was abandoned and eventually drowned after repeated promises she would be rescued.

"The guy who runs this building I'm in, the emergency management, who's responsible for everything. His mother was trapped in St. Bernard nursing home and every day she called him and said are you coming, son, is somebody coming," Aaron Broussard, president of Jefferson Parish, said as he burst into heavy sobbing on NBC's Meet the Press program.

"And he said 'yeah mama, somebody's coming to get ya, somebody's coming to get ya on Tuesday, somebody's coming to get ya on Wednesday, somebody's coming to get ya on Thursday, somebody's coming to get you on Friday.'

"And she drowned Friday night, she drowned Friday night. Nobody's coming to get us."

"Nobody's coming to get us, nobody's coming to get us," Broussard said through tears.

Broussard, president of the parish just south of New Orleans, did not give the woman's name.

The aftermath of Hurricane Katrina "will go down as one of the worst abandonments of Americans on American soil ever in U.S. history," he said.

Local and federal officials said they expected to find thousands of corpses still floating in flood waters or locked inside homes and buildings destroyed by the devastating storm that struck the U.S. Gulf Coast last Monday.

Broussard said the government must acknowledge the part it played in senseless deaths.

"It's not just Katrina that caused all these deaths in New Orleans," he said. "Bureaucracy has committed murder here in the greater New Orleans area, and bureaucracy has to stand trial before Congress now."

He demanded congressional hearings on what went wrong in the chaotic aftermath of the hurricane.

"They've had press conferences. I'm sick of press conferences. For God's sake, shut up and send us somebody."


Maybe we could at least spend a moment of silence or say a little prayer for the victims.

Friday, September 02, 2005

My Sabbath 02.09.05 3.39pm

Yesterday Annette said that it’s good to practice Sabbath on our own. I guess I really need one.

Sabbath means, reflecting what you have been doing for the past one week or more. Trying to recall what you have learnt or encountered. Hmm, I’m not sure if I’m getting it correct. But, I’ll just do it anyway :)

So, here is it, in no chronicle orders, or any order for a matter of fact, I’ll just scribble about anything that come to my mind :D

  • I’m listening to “Get Your Number” by Mariah Carey ft Jermaine Dupri. I like this song
  • I had bought more than 12 pieces of clothes (tops and bottoms) in a span of 3 months – It’s MEGA sales!
  • I’ve met up with my old buddies(Canmy, Eevon, Hoonli) last Saturday over a friend’s birthday party which I was not invited *grin* (the birthday girl tot that I’m still in MMU, Malacca! That’s why she didn’t invite me :D).
  • We chatted about the past (way back to primary school!), now and future.
  • I’ll be meeting one of my best friend, maybe the bestest, during secondary school, this Sunday! I’m excited.
  • Been keeping in touch with old buddies through blog (kaisim, jayne)
  • I’m taking a 3-months break to make/reconsider a major decision of what I had always wanted to do 2 years ago.
  • I’m unchurched! (for various reasons- er, is there such word?)
  • Reexamining my faith.
  • I found partners to explore other churches together and we started Symphony after we were given some assignments from a pastor.
  • Visited more churches than I have for the past 3 years.
  • Discover a church that served real wine during communion! *grin*
  • Found a church I like.
  • But still unchurched :) but I’m excited to go to church again!
  • Talk to a pastor on Yahoo Messenger. And I think that’s cool :D
  • I had been reading blogs. Many blogs.
  • Started to blog again.
  • Attending all bible surgeons’ meeting.
*Bible surgeonsthe name of a bible study group in MMU, facilitated by Annette and Kevin. We meet on 8.15pm @ B3-6-8, Cyberia every Thursday.

  • Am tremendously blessed by studying the Words with Annette before CF, even though it was only 30minutes
  • Has been a potato couch.
  • Oh, I’ve graduated!*smiles*
  • Took a family photo during my convocation.
  • He called me a few times after so many years to ask for something.
  • Make someone’s life miserable, and I feel miserable too.
  • Try to be a friend.
  • Idle for 3 weeks.
  • Visited my god-sister.
  • Ate in Murni. And I like it.
  • My FYP supervisor invited me to join his company, but I haven’t finish doing the task he gave. :(
  • I want to do my Master by research, but couldn’t get any funding.
  • I met a Cambodian girl in the campus and became friend.
  • I missed singing and playing with Cambodian kids.
  • I missed Cambodia food.
  • I enjoy being lazy and doing nothing.
  • Missed Acts’ worship.
  • Oh, I cycled in Putrajaya!
  • I enjoyed the garden in Alamanda.
  • Rejoice on my friend’s wedding. (that makes me feel old, ahaha..)
  • Will be catching up with Canmy during her birthday party on 1st Oct in Taiping. (looking forward to it)
  • I felt disconnected.
  • I missed my old friends and I learn to appreciate them.
  • Decided to buy a second hand, limited edition Kelisa, but at the end the owner decided not to sell *rolled eyes*
  • read "his little secret" on sherman kuek's blog and am encouraged..
  • Thinking of my ‘family..’
  • I’m still listening to Mariah’s number.
  • She’s making a BIG come back! BIGGER than before!.
  • I love her :D

Mmm.. that’s all I could think of. I think I’m just merely listing down what I have done or how I feel.

mm.. I’m feeling better now.. yay!!

i am...

wandering...

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Focus! Focus! Focus!

Looking at the rate I blog nowadays, one knows what I have been doing in the office. I’ve lost my focus. I feel that I’ve been waking up every morning, coming to work and return home aimlessly. Where is my focus? What do I want to achieve in my life? What am I doing now? Am I walking towards my goals? Or, do I have any now?

I feel so disconnected. All the reasons why I accepted a job in MMU, Cyberjaya seems to be disappearing. What has caused me to stay in MMU seems to be vague beyond my reach now.

I need to reflect and to find a focus for everything that I’m doing. Else life would be meaningless. No, I wouldn’t want to live my life that way.

Dato Onn’ Jaafar

Yesterday, Tun Mahatir called us to “Remember the Tunku’s work”. No doubt, Tunku Abdul Rahman, the man who we call “Bapa Kemerdekaan” has indeed brought independence to our country.




However, when I was studying the Malaysia’s history back in Form 3, it was Dato Onn’ Jaafar that had catches my attention. He was the founder of UMNO. He was the one who sees that the vision of uniting the three majority races could free us from the colonial.

In 1950, Dato Onn has insisted to open the party to non-Malays, but to no avail. Thus, he left UMNO and formed another party (I don’t remember its name) which consists of Malay, Chinese and Indian believing that his dream will come to pass.

I tried to find online biography of Dato’ Onn Jaafar, but could only find a few. The best I could I get is this (a summary of the Book called “Imbasan peristiwa-peristiwa sebelum merdeka” ):

Dato’ Onn Jaafar was a central figure in this glorious struggle. He was the first Malay leader to be accepted by all the Malays of the Peninsular. It was no mean achievement, for the Malays in those days felt greater loyalty to their states and their rulers than to their race. But Dato’ Onn Jaafar succeeded in making them shed their narrow parochialism. This is the greatest achievement of Dato’ Onn apart of course from his success in preventing the British from expropriating the land of the Malays as they did the land of the Palestinians. Dato’ Onn helped save this country from the fate of Palestine. And so this book is important reading for those wanting to know the man who at the darkest hour of the Malays and this country, emerged to unite the Malays and galvanise them to fight one of those thoughtless schemes of the European colonialists, which could result in endless tragic wars and sufferings.

Dato’ Onn Jaafar is one of the historical figures I truly admire. I hope Malaysians will also remember him in the reflection of the Independence Day.

Monday, August 29, 2005

mm...rambling... :)


Mm.. how should I start it? I just want to link this post to Gimhan’s post on Megachurches and Christian Pop Cultural. ;p

In my limited vocabulary, I can only describe Gimhan with one word : REAL!

He’s someone that I turn to when I struggle with my Christians faith,
when I have so many unanswered questions,
when I have doubts,
when I’m in need of a listening ear
and the list goes on and on.

No, I don’t go to the church leaders or CF leaders when I have crisis, but to this guy which I call a friend. And I’m glad that he has been there through thick and thin, providing me some insight on what’s happening around the world, on religion, on church, and even on friendship. Even on the controversial that he raised, he’s still very much a man after God’s heart, IMHO. Words can’t express how glad am I to have known him even though at times he could be irritatingly “pervert”. But yes, I thank God for a friend like him.

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Gim and me after CF graduation nite :D


Leona wrote on peer-pressures in church in her "Jottings' post ..
Anyway, the point I’m trying to make here is that sometimes we tend to get carried away with what other people do. Even in things like worshiping; lifting of hands, speaking in tongues, crying and jumping. I don’t deny God’s presence during worship and I have full faith that He can touch lives that way. The only question you’ve got to ask yourself is, how much of it is praising God, and how much of it is peer pressure?


I must admit that last time, I used to feel much pressured during worship, especially when my pastor is worship leading. I do not dare to sit in a position where I think she could see. (don’t get me wrong, I enjoy her worship very much, she’s a really good worship leader) I always wonder how would others thinkof me, if I didn’t raise my hands or even jump like they do? After a long time, I somehow blend into the cultural of doing that during worship. I listened and believed what they say. I sometimes do not question much.So, in a way, I’ve grow so much and yet I didn’t really learn much. Thus, when storms come my way, I fall,….so flatly on the ground. *hehe*