of my many thoughts..

finals is just around the corner and my first paper is on tuesday, and i have not really started my revision yet :( just not in the mood to study. What would the reasons be?

Am i too exhausted after my fyp?just finished my fyp last saturday, 29/3 and i think everything went well.

Thank God that everything went fine, tho it was abit last minutes.. but all glory to His Name. Cos, without Him, i do not think i could get it done on time. i only have like 2 weeks to complete my fyp, when i still have more than 50% to do, to be honest, 80%.

i had to learn up Servlet programming and J2ME's record management system in just 2 weeks. i know it very well that it is impossible for me to comprehend it in 2 weeks and then deploy it in my project. But nothing is impossible with God ;)

i thank God for a good topic and a good supervisor....
thank God for the many people that had somehow been there to guide me (vern tan, simon hoh, chailee, & more~ thank you ;) )
i thank God that we could complete this project in time..

ohh.. i was baptised on Easter Sunday, a day after my fyp presentation. :) mm how do i feel? at first i thot i might feel something different, like... i dunoo... Right after i baptised, i didn't feel anything :D. However, later at night, i somehow felt close to Jesus.. :D

and the day after i was baptised, many of my friends felt the tremor (result from the earthquake in Sumatra) except me. I was there, in the building, yet i feel nothing. Before i could think, my fren grabbed my hand and ran down from 5th floor to the ground. i just followed. But i did not feel any tremor. sigh..

my mummy

today is the second day of CNY. when i woke up in the morning, to my surprise, my mum and brother had left for KL :( Mum had decided to fetch my cousins back to KL today and to come back tmrw. maaainn.i was not even informed about it. and my brother, he left just like that, without saying goodbye to me..this is so sad.

Btw, i'm in Kluang now, from Kluang to KL is about 3-4 hours drive, i guess.Tiring rite?

That's why i've always admire my mum for her strength.POWER! Before this, when i was staying in Taiping, shecame back to Taiping almost twice a month, sometimes once monthly. Yeps, she drove all the way from Singapaore or Johorjust to see us for a few days and to give us our pocket money.

She carries the burden of supporting her three kids herself, singlehandedly for more than 10 years without complaining. Driving up and down from Johor to Taiping. Sometimes, she would came back just to fetch me back to Kluang during schoolholidays. This is my dearest mummy. Sacrificing for her children.

This is unconditional love.Mummy, thank you....

a reason to be thankful

Happy Chinese New Year

i went for my CNY shopping yesterday with my frens. The trip was not futile as i had got myself a skirt, a dress and a top! :) i did learnt a lesson today. My lesson is, we should follow our heart to buy what we like, instead of what's logic.





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i'll be goin leaving for JB later at 12pm. I had wanted to go back to Taiping so badly, but i couldn't make it, due to my indecisiveness mind *roll eyes* Anyhow, i couldn't find any transport to go back too. This is the fourth years of me not spending my CNY in Taiping. Yes, i am missing Taiping..



i miss the food..

i miss Kaka kuey teow th'ng

i miss the chicken wings

i miss the char kuey teow



i miss the town

i miss walking around taiping town



i miss the greeness of lake garden,

the stillness of the water..

the sound of the children playing..



i miss the evening in taiping

i miss the night market



i miss Convent

i miss my schooling days

where the days were so innocent..



i miss the serenity of Taiping..

yet i miss the busyness of it during CNY..

and.most of all...

i miss my family and friends in taiping



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i've learnt that, everyday is a reason to be thankful..

i am thankful for the sun that shines in the morning, for the rainy days, for the blowing wind,for a good night sleep, for my family and my friends to share joys, laughters,love, and sorrow , for a place to stay ....

i'm thankful knowing the purpose of my life every morning i wake up..

i'm thankful for this life that i'm living..

i'm thankful for knowing that God is in control of tomorrow..



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something to ponder..

There’s something that I would like to share here. This was a sermon I heard on last Sunday during church. And it had been bothering me. Thus, I’ve decided to share it..

I’ve not done much research into it, just some of the obvious facts which most of you had already know.

Below are some bible verses taken from the new testaments, in the books of Gospel, when Jesus was asked by his disciples regarding the signs of the Times and the End of the Age.

And this is what He answered.

Luke 21: 10-11 (Matthew 24:7; Mark 13:8)

10 Then He said to them, “Nation will rise against nation

and kingdom against kingdom”

11 “And there will be great earthquakes in various places,

and famines and pestilences;

and there will be fearful sights

and great signs from heaven”

Nation rise against nation (Palestinian and Israelites?)

Kingdom against kingdom (US and Iraq? Wars?)

Great earthquakes (Sumatera earthquake which led to tsunami on 26/12, Sulawesi earthquake on 24/01/05 )

Famines (Africa? Afganistan?)

Pestilences (AIDS? JE? Bird Flu? )

Fearful sight (the destruction of cities? Eg, Acheh, Sri Lanka?)

Luke 21: 25

23 “And there will be signs in the sun, in the moon, and in the stars; and on the earth distress of nations, with perplexity, the sea and the waves roaring;”

the sea and the waves roaring (tsunami?)



Was it merely a coincidence that whatever that are happening around the world now coincided with what Jesus said 2000 years ago? You decide.

Psalm 121

I will lift up my eyes to the hills--

From whence comes my help?

My help comes from the Lord,

Who made heaven and earth.



He will not allow your foot to be moved;

He who keeps you will not slumber.

Behold, He who keeps Israel

Shall neither slumber nor sleep.



The Lord is your keeper;

The Lord is your shade at your right hand,

The sun shall not strike you by day,

Nor the moon by night.



The Lord shall preserve you from all evil;

He shall preserve your soul.

the Lord shall preserve your going out and your coming in

From this time forth, and even forevermore.

sometimes...

sometimes you failed..

sometimes you make ppl angry..

sometimes.. things happened..

without us seeing that it coming..

sometimes you hurted someone...

sometimes you got hurted..

sometimes.. you make someone cry..

sometimes.. you cry alone in the room..

sometimes... you think that no one cares..

sometimes.. you got yourself in troubles

but there's no one you could turn to..



who do you turn to then?

Life café will never exist without YOUR supports. Thank YOU so much.

First of all, thank to the ONE above, whom allowing everything to happen smoothly. Even the national blackout couldn't stop us going on with to our program.



Lilian & Niger – Our royal chef, what would Life café be, without YOU? Thank you for planning the menu (from 3 variety of BBQ source to the scrumptious chocolate banana) and buying the raw food from Tesco (for ferrying 300 chicken wings + drumstick around Tesco?) and the market.



Suchen – Thank you for going back all the way to Klang just to bring back your BBQ pit and i-dunno-wat-issit-called. Thank you for making the potatoes salad.



Peak Yin - Thank you for making the sandwiches and helping out in the Life café.



Su Lin & Su Yin – Thank you for making the jelly and helping out in the food preparation J



Michelle & Joshua – The master of the ceremony. ;) Life café would probably be boring and lifeless without both of you. You have added more life into Life café, thank YOU!.



Chee Yong , Benny , Chern Liang, Charis & more – thank you for standing behind, barbequing for both days of the events. I bet you guys have fun there.



Benny – thank you for helping out with the drinks.



Chee Yong – thank you for helping out with the logistics.



Audrey & Nicky – the two game-masters. Without your games, there will not be any crowd interaction. The games were marvelous.



Jane – Thank you for helping out at the food preparation and taking care of the food.



Steph – Thank you for helping out at the food preparation and overseeing the whole event.

Gary – thank you for your BBQ pits and helping around with cutting the onions as well as carrying things to the clubhouse.

CheeKah – thank you for selling the T-shirts, helping around carrying things back and forth from the clubhouse.

Alvin – thank you for finding performers for the night, and helping out with the AV.



Terry – thank you for taking care of the AV system.



Poh Yee – the best sales-girl I’ve ever met. Thank you so much for helping out with the food preparation and selling the glow sticks during Life café.



Shen Shee - thanks for helping out in the cafe and for finding the BBQ pits :)



Alvin, Lenard, Esther, Weeliem, Beatrice, Chee Meng & friends, Leona, Rachel, Celine & Audrey - Your performance rocks! Thanks you for sharing it.



CyberChristmas 04/05 committees – Thank you for your ideas and supports in the making of Life café. ;)



GimHan, Julia, Joseph, Mel, Ken, Karen, Chris, Desmond, ShenShee, Jasons, Jia Wern, Lydia and the rest who had helped out - thank you sooooooooooooooooooooo much!!

the malacca's CFers(Deric, Joash, Mark & Edmund) - thank you for coming down all the way from Malacca to support us ;)

Chailee & Lobak - thank you for your extension cable *grin*

*updated:

Samuel Lee : Thank you for carrying those tables all the way from A1 to the clubhouse.

There will be no Life café without each and every one of you! Thank you for your time and efforts. You all had make Life café a success despite of the circumstances we were facing.

Above all, I would just like to give thanks to the One above whom overseeing the whole event. When you partner with God, no matter how obstructive the circumstances may be (like unorganized or messy are your preparation), the outcome would be highly beyond our expectation, just like CyberChristmas 04/05.

happy birthday Jesus!

it's Christmas again!



it's a season of joy, season of hope, season of love...



may you find the true meaning of Christmas this season....



happy birthday Jesus!

i miss taiping

i was browsing through ar von's blog and saw all the photos that she posted in her blog *sob* *sob* how i missss everyone!! they get to go shopping in singapore and the they get to go back to taiping to meet up with all(er, maybe not all la, but some) my exschoolmates, my best friendsssssssssss! how i missss them, how i missssssss taiping!!



I was sadden when i read that "under the tree", one of our breakfast spot will no longer called "under the tree" as they are shifting to a new place because the government is taking back the land. :( it will never be the same again. i wish i could visit the place for the last time before it moved.



then, i visited Taiping website. Though the website was nothing fancy, but by reading the messages posted by all the taiping lang who has left taiping really makes my heart longs to go back to my little hometown.

: michelle :

blessed be-Early birthday , mich *grin*



mich darling,



you've been a great fren,

you've been a blessing

you've been my support,

you've been my inspiration,

you've been always there,

you've been a gem...

you've been a darling..



thank you...

for your thoughtfulness,

for remembering me in prayers,

for all the fun and laughters,

for the time we shared,

for bringing me to Christ,

and most importantly..

for being YOU!



you are beautiful,

you are thoughful,

you are kind,

you are helpful,

you are cheerful,

you are friendly,

you are sincere,

you are thruthful,

...



i remembered..

i've was there in Malacca for your 18th birthday,

in A&W subang, for your 19th birthday

in Taiping,for your 20th birthday

and this year.. in Cyberjaya.. for your 21st bithrday

and i'm glad to be there ;)



thank you for this 13 years of beautiful friendship. ;)

happy birthday mich ;)

i'm tired, and i'm sleepy.. goin back to jb tmrw... but i haven't started packing. guess i'm gonna sleep first. Gonna stop in malacca for one night then only head back to jb with my 6 others girl frens.



looking ahead for a wonderful and enjoyable hols...

happy hols...



and..



blessed birthday , mich *hugz*



goodnite...

.: say something :.

mariah's new singles is out, and it's called "Say Something" feat. Snoop Dogg, more of like R&B genre..



urmm... how i miss those ballad songs back in "Day dream" era. This is not that kind of song which i would go "whoaa...ahhh" at the first time i listened to it. din show much of her vocals. *sigh* anyway, i still hope that this song will be a hitz when it's officially out in february 2005. :)



her upcoming album is named "The Emancipation of Mimi"...



"Mimi is a very personal nickname only used by those closest to me... just one of those little things that I've kept for myself in an attempt to have some delineation between a public persona and a private life," Carey writes. "By naming the album The Emancipation of Mimi, I am letting my guard down and inviting my fans to be that much closer to me.

"Most importantly," she continues, "I am celebrating the fact that I've grown into a person and artist who no longer feels imprisoned by my insecurities or compelled to try and live up to someone else's vision of 'Mariah Carey.' I now feel I can honestly say, 'This is me, the real me, take it or leave it.' For the first time in my life, I feel free and unashamed to be who I really am. And that's what the music of this album and its title reflect."



Emancipation

n : freeing someone from the control of another; especially a parent's relinquishing authority and control over a minor child



ok, i do not understand the meaning of emancipation before this. i was like.. "huh? wat's tat?" :D

just hope that this latest album will be something surprising and good :D

the last day of my last 2nd trimester..

i've been awake for 23 hours, woke up at 6+ yesterday morning to study for my last paper.



Sat for that paper at 3pm.

- if i ever get a good result for this paper. it must be Your grace again.



Met my fyp supervisor at 545pm.

-glad to have him as my supervisor. Thank God for that. Told us to spent at least 6 hours a week for our fyp. Treat it like in Malaysian Idols contest. Need to at least "do" something every week. Email him a report on every monday of what we did. starting from next week. but next week i'm goin for hols. :D. perhaps i'll emailed him abt my trip :D . chatted for a while.



left to library to return books with my fyp groupmates.



left to AYA at 715pm for powergroup meeting.

-went to Klang for dinner. all girls outing. 9 of us. had Teochew steamboat. had fun. had laughter. got lost on the way back to Cyber. *how blur can i get?, always lead people to the wrong direction, i have no sense of direction*



reached home at 1130pm.

-chatted on ym. met lobak.



230am , went to Hassan with my group of girlfrens to discuss about our hols trip.

- malacca-johore-singapore trip



430. reached home.

read blogs. chatted.



5am- blogged...



still blogging...



521 - time for bed.



good night and good morning.

the butterfly story

The butterfly story

by boss' mum



From the egg to the caterpillar I was with you

As you diligently fet upon My words, you grew

Just like the full-grown caterpillar in its cocoon

Abide in Me in the secret hiding place till full bloom

Commune with me in the stillness and humility... in My special way

Walk with me and draw upon My strength each day

As you dwell in My presence My voice is truly heard

Gaining insiglt into My holy Word

Lean upon Me, My child and let Me lead you, one step at a time

and in My time My light at the end of the tunnel you'll surely find..



A rainbow-coloured breakthrough..





A transformed butterfly.... My grace delight!



Alight upon My wings of faith as I set you to flight..

it's Your grace..

i've did the sillyiest thing any student would do when they are goin for thier examination. i forgot to bring my purse with me when i went for my 2nd paper this morning. My student Id and IC are all in my wallet. I have nothing to identify myself. Technically, i should not be able to sit for the exam, unless i can produce a document to prove that i am who i am..



but, amazingly.... by God's grace, the invigilator didn't force me to rush back to take my Student ID, he allowed me to sit for my examination!! yes, even without any document to identify who i am. Thank God!!!



Anyway, he asked me to show him my ID after the paper, so i rushed back to take my ID. ironicly when i return to the exam venue, he was no longer there.



So, next time if u ever forgot to bring your ID to exam, this is what you should do:

go to the exam unit, tell them what happened, then they'll authenticate your identity :)



it has always been Your grace that carry me through, thank You, Lord..



2 down, 1 more paper to go tomorrow and i'll be set FREE!!

He is back!

my cousin has reached Malaysia! Four more days and he'll reach Singapore, completing his 3 months cycling route from China-Singapore. Am i glad to see him? so glad.



and i enjoyed our family gathering yesterday. a few of us gathered together to welcome my cousin as he his cycling route touched the land of KL yesterday.



i have been reading blogs lately. Many have inspired me.. i simply love the way they play with words, expressing thier feeling and thoughts.



2 more papers to go, one tomorrow, another the day after...

gotta get back to my notes now..

finally... some updates :D

this is my study week, but i have no mood for studying at ALL! *sigh* had not started my revision yet. and the worse thing is, i'm ade in my holiday mood. :D that's what i was doin after my fyp presentation last friday. The day where i was finally free, free from all assignments and projects.



Then i went back to JB on Saturday, went back to KLuang on Sunday for family gathering, had so much fun there. In Kluang, i had did something i never do before to my hair :D Not goin to reveal much here, yet.



Yesterday, I came back to cyber with my friend's car. We started our journey at 6 am. The scenery along the highway was so beautiful that it kept us awake throughout the whole journey.



The past two months had been two hectic months for me. Emotionally and physically, i was challenged. But God had been graceful enough to pull me through.

a busy week..

it has been only one week after the first trimester started. But somehow it seems like a few weeks to me. Maybe because i'd been very very busy. Almost everynight, i was out for something.



On monday afternoon, i've got to know Dr. Chia, which reminded me of my grandpa. He's a really nice person. Was talking to him for a while, and he told us to enjoy our uni life, don't just study study study. And that, whatever had happened in the past, can't be undone(is there such word?) . We just need to look forward and live our life to the fullest.

At night, we had exhousemates gathering ~ went to puchong for dinner, then to IOI mall. It was great to meet them again after soo long. I really missed them a lot.



Tuesday, attended CF, was supposed to share my industrial training experience. But somehow i got too nervous and tension, screwed up my sharing, and only managed to show them some pictures that i took during my internship. But, truly, i did really learnt a lot. It had expose me to the working environment and also a few new languages and technologies. But the most important thing that i've gained, was my friendship with the MMU trainees as well as my colleuges in BTexact. ;)



Wednesday, went for CG makan. I had to skip my pasar malam trip with my best friends for the CG makan. I really wished to go with them, to spend more time with them, but then again, my CG is my responsibility. I sure hope that, every other GC members will as well, make it thier priority to attend for CG meeting. ;)



Thursday, my friend, Vincent was leaving toUK for one year. I didn't get to send him off at KLIA as i had my CyberChristmas meeting that night. But it's ok, cos the meeting was really great and fruitful, wouldn't want to miss it either.



Friday, was debating if i should go for my church's power group meeting in usj. Somehow, i ended up in the meeting with mich. We had home cook food in Jessy's house (one of my powergroup member) and the sharing was great, about "quiet time". Yes, a reminder.



Saturday, supposedly to have a fyp meeting with my supervisor. However, we can't make it as one of we have to help my groupmember have to shift house. So, we had to postponed our meeting again. And i had a whole pile of works to do for my fyp before meeting him next week.



Talking about living life to the fullest... I think i did for this week. As for next week, i guess it would be as busy if not even busier than this week.



Thank you, Father for pulling me through this, help me to commit the rest of the semester into Your hands. :D

a summary of my hols

finally, my spring cleaning is over. it started at around 4+ yesterday , ended at 12!! Thank God for Pei Ling, my roomie, we got the whole house clean again *grin*



i just came back from JB on Tuesday, by AirAsia. But my flight was 30mins delayed.Darn! When i went back to JB, last Tuesday, my flight was one and half hour delayed. But then again , i've got the cheap flights.. so nothing to be complained about.



Going back to JB was great. We've moved to Permas Jaya, a new apartment (quite near to deric's house) It feels so good to be home.... our own home.. For the past 3 years, we had been renting. But now, finally, we have our own home. I can feel how relieve my mum is.



One of the nite, i went out with my younger bro, soly and deric to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang. For full detail , click here, the post's name is "aiyoh" (aahahha). Then the next day, i went out shopping with ChaiLee and Siao Fong.



On Saturday, Soly, Deric and me went for a one day(i was suppose to overnite there) trip to Singapore. The main purpose was to visit City Harvest church. Mine was to see my friend. Unfortunately, she sprained her leg, so i didn't get to stay with her in Singapore.



After getting Soly's sister's stuff (CD player and bag) we headed to the City Harvest Church. There's one word to describe the church : POWERFUL! very indeed! I was flabbergasted when i saw the building, and listening to one of the member explaination about thier church, i can't help but to praise God and thank God for His wonderful work.



The building was built with $48Million Singapore dollar. Paid in CASH. The money had been raised by the members over the period of 7 years before it was built. The church is now 3 years old. It has , i guess 6 storey underground, the sanctuary is located at P4, and it's about 2 storey big, can fit up to 2000 people. For more information about the church, click here.



The building was great, how about the service? It was SUPERB! It has 6 services perweek. One services looks like a christian rally, a congregation of almost 2000 people. Amazing. Another interesting fact, the service is live telecast over the internet. And Ps. Kong Hee is indeed an energetic speaker. I enjoyed his sermon very much. After the service, we took the shutter bus to Woodland MRT station. Every weekend, City Harvest chartered 286 buses to feery thier members, making a total of 1,842 stops.~ amazing church with an amazing God!



" ¹³I can do all things through Christ^[2] who strengthens me." -phillippians 4:13-

is the world really coming to the end?

while i was busy partying with the MI show, my friend Gimhan, had dived into the current issue of peak-oil, which had makes me ponder on the thoughts of the end of the world.



After reading his blog, i still find it hard to digest those details... anyway, you could visit his blog for more information.