i couldn't concerntrate on my work.. :(

ok, i guess i should maybe just divert my attention to something else. ermm... like writing on my blog..



i just got a reply from my old fren through friendster. i'm so happy as i still get to

keep in touch with her. Friendster has works wonders for me. it managed to "connect" me with my

old frens, yeps, my exschoolmates from srk convent klian pauh or sm convent (;p). some who are really really old frens, some that i

had lost in touch with for like 5 years... yeps. thank you friendster :)

late for work

aarrghhh.. late for work today. :(

and someone turned down my offer when i offered him bread :((

don't feel nice at all.

gotta start working now...

goodnite (:|

it's 0111 now, and i'm feeling very sleepy and tired..

so i'm goin to bed now.. goodnite..



song of the day : Make It Happen n Love Takes Time



chorus:

If you believe in yourself enough

And know what you want

You're gonna make it happen

(Make it happen)

And if you get down on your

knees at night

And pray to the Lord

He's gonna make it happen

(Make it happen) :: make it happen, by mariah carey ::

gimhan never fails to make me feel like i'm a lil' girl..

i was awaken by the sound of my roomates chit-chating at 730 in the morning. they were preparing themselves for work. they usually leave at 745am, but today they were late.



so, there was i, awake and had nothing to do. normally i woke up at 8am. reaching my mouse, i started to clicked at the browser and ended up at gimhan's blog. Reading his posts really makes me feel like i'm a lil' kid, i for one, feel that his writing is very well-thought and excellent. ;p gim always said that i'm just like a lil' girl, and now, even his blog makes me feel like i am one. *sigh*



today, i went lunch for more than 2 hours :">, well, ps Sandra came to visit us today, so we had lunch in fcm cafe. the meeting was supposedly to be at 1230, but due to unforseen circumstances, we met ps sandra and shirley at 130pm, anyway, we had a great time of fellowship, and got to know more about christianity(ehm.. cos had not been reading the bible very frequent)



as for work, i guess we had see the light and now are moving on to another phase of the project. i'm given the task of creating an user interface for our program.. it's gonna be tough... but it would be a good experience :)



song of the day : Love takes time, by Mariah Carey

cool poll on ym ;)

okie.. it started when i sent TWO emails to my cg, shio's yahoogroup mail.chern liang, said i flood his mailbox (cos he's my cg member. thus, to prove him wrong, i decided to have a poll! it's now 2243, the pollwill end at 0000 :



POLL: is sending 2 emails a day, called FLOODING? [YES:5] [NO:10]



i think it's quite cool la.. to conduct polls thru yahoo messenger :D. i lurrrvee the lastest yahoo messenger..

i went to visit a baby boy.. named Max :)

yesterday the most significant things that i did was to visit my collegue, Hui Na which just gave birth to a baby boy *soo cute la him*. we left the office at 4+pm and reached Taman Desa Hospital at 5, visited her and the baby, then left, and reached the office at 630pm.

Hui Na suffered for 30mins of pain during the labour time. she said the pain was too unbearable that she had forgotten how painful it was. *scary la*

my god sis sufferred the labour pain for more than 24hours when she had her first baby and 20 hours for the second one.

i remembered watching Human Developement video about birthgiving back in alpha.. eeee.. so gelifying. but after seeing the baby, i guess all those pain is worthy. =)



by that time i reached the office, mr ong boon keat (i'm supposed to follow his car back) had leave the office :((



anyway, i had shio cg yesterday! we had had a GREAT time..! tho at first it was a bit kelam-kabut, but somehow things managed to fall into places.



all in all, thank God for a good day.

i need to be more active...

i need to be more active here! i wan my Gmail!!!!! Gmail.. here i come!!! yeaa..

hehehe... just got to know from boss that we could we invited by blogger to register for Gmail, but i didn't get the invitation, well, i guess it's because i had not been very active here..

but it's okie.. now.. I'M BACK!!! muahahahah



i saw a squirrel TODAY!! yay!! just in front of my office.. soo cute laa.. then jason told that he had a squirrel as a pet, but it ran away at the end. hahah.. good squirrel, bad jason.. ;p



ohh..i just downloaded e-mule last friday, it's soo COOL.. cos i get to dl mariah carey's video.. thru emule.. muahahahhaahah... well, let me see, currently i have (besides the 6G of her stuff i have in my pc)



-"shining through the rain" - they interviewed mariah after she released the "Charmbracelet" album. they also asked her abt her breakdown a year ago.. it's sooo soo soo cool!!! i get to see the interview as well as part of her concert. she said what the tabloid reported are mostly false. i got to know soo much more abt mariah.



- "rainbow world tour" - this is also super cool, it's like a collection of her rainbow tour, which lasted for more than an hour. muahahah



-"a compilation of Paris Charmbracelet concert" - cool stuff too, tho the quality is abit blur.. cos this guy curi-curi shoot during her concert. muahahah..



-"mariah @ Star Academy" - very cool oso- muahahhahah



thanks to www.bestofmariahcarey.com

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FYP dilemma... *clueless*

mm... i've just got back from CGL trainning.. spent like the whole day in the trainning..

dunno why just have the feeling of heaviness in me.. ahh.. feel kinda down now..

maybe because i saw my roomate discussing abt her FYP now with her groupmates...

but for me.. i don't have a slightest idea on what to do for my FYP.. gosh! i haven't even settle the issue of fyp members yet, what's more abt the ideas.. *sigh*

talking abt ideas for FYP, i seriously dunno what to do, or how could i implement what i've learnt for 3 years from MMU..

ahh... feeling so helpless now.. God, please show me the way.. bend me if You need,Lord..

i hope that i could really LEARN smth thru this industrial trainning... please gimme a learning heart, Lord.. Amen

.......

sigh... today got nth much to do in the office oso..

i tried to upload my pictures to tis blog, but it isn't working.. sighh

mmm........

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...

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yet another unproductive day in the office

yay! another fruitless day in the office..

sighh.. it is the 7th day since i've started my trainning in BTexact..

God must had heard my prayers, by granting me a place in BTexact.. Thank You , Lord. :)

i was really excited when i knew that i was confirmed a place in BTexact for my trainning..

i like the environment here.. and the people here are very nice oso..

the best part was, each of us were given a workstation, haha with personal pc..



mm.. lately i've been listening to guy sebastian's Angel Brought Me Here



Its been a long and winding journey, but I\'m finally here tonight, picking up the pieces and walking back in to the light, into the sunset of the glory, where my heart and future lie, there\'s nothing like that feeling when I look into your eyes.



My dreams came true, when I found you, I found you, my miracle.



If you, could see, my angel, sure the answer to my prayer, and if you could feel, the tenderness I feel, you would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here.



Standing here before you feels like I\'ve been born again, every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name.



My dreams came true, right here in front of you, I found you, my miracle.



If you, could see, what I see, sure the answer to my prayer, and if you could feel the tenderness I feel,you would know it would be clear that angels brought me here.

happy BIRTHDAaaaaaaaY to MEEEEEEE!!!!

today is my birthday!! yeaaa!!!! MY DAY!!!!muahahhah

21 years old ade!!!! heheheh.... i couldn't believe that i'm actually 21 now..

when i was smaller, i always wish that i could grow up faster but nowww.. i dun wan to grow old so fast..

it's scary how time flies! it still couldn't register in my mind that i'm 21 now..

i feel like i'm 18.. muahahahhaah.. itu cheong gim han said i look like 15... cis cis cis..

mmmm.. birthday? celebration? does birthday always go with celebration..?

when i was younger, i was very excited abt my birthday, i am still now.. i'll always make sure that there'll be a cake on my birthday.. hahaha.. but now,not anymore.. i think..

i feel that, i should be celebrating for my mum instead.. cos she had to go thru all the labour pain and agony for me.. *sniff**sniff*

yet another day, but with sign and wonders .......

arrghh..i find it soo hard to concerntrate on my PLC notes.. my mind keep wander away no matter how hard i tried to concerntrate. *sigh*

i have a paper tmrw.. at 2.30.. i hope that i could finish all the sylybus by tonite!!!!



anyway, i went to hospital to visit my close fren today, she was getting better now..! so much BETTA!! she could eat, walk and talk like her normal self again! *Praise God* *clap clap clap* ;) i feel soooooooo HAPPY for her. doctor said she may even discharge by tmrw. :)



mm.. guess that's all for now..

gotta start revising sooooooon.....

first day of april

today is the first day of april.. and it has been long since i last blogged, i always tried to find time to blog.. but...

this week is my Final examination week. had 2 papers ade.

for the past weeks, i had learn to depend more on God, as i know i couldn't do it by myself. which is good, desperation makes you clling more to God, and surrender everything to Him. :)



one of my closest fren has been admitted to hospital for appendicitis on monday. she's still in hospital now, cos of some problem.. whenever i visit her, i feel helpless cos i couldn't do much to help her to ease her pain. i'll just pray for her recovery as soon as possible..



all-time favorite qoute : "Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

Lean not on your own understanding ;

in all that your ways acknowlege Him,

and He shall direct your paths" :: Proverb 3:5-6 ::



video : "heartbreaker , love hangover MIX " - Mariah Carey in Divas 2000

first day of APRIL

today is the first day of april.. and it has been long since i last blogged, i always tried to find time to blog.. but...

this week is my Final examination week. had 2 papers ade.

for the past weeks, i had learn to depend more on God, as i know i couldn't do it by myself. which is good, desperation makes you clling more to God, and surrender everything to Him. :)



one of my closest fren has been admitted to hospital for appendicitis on monday. she's still in hospital now, cos of some problem.. whenever i visit her, i feel helpless cos i couldn't do much to help her to ease her pain. i'll just pray for her recovery as soon as possible..



all-time favorite qoute : "Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

Lean not on your own understanding ;

in all that your ways acknowlege Him,

and He shall direct your paths" :: Proverb 3:5-6 ::



video : "heartbreaker , love hangover MIX " - Mariah Carey in Divas 2000

three weeks.

yea!i'm back, finally.. :) the past few weeks had been quite hectic for me.

last blogged date: 22 feb

today : 12 feb

okie, it's exactly 22 days since Mariah Carey's concert in Malaysia.. but it seems so long ade..



for the first week after her concert:

my agenda was to install FREEBSD, my computer network project. i actually installed it more than 10 times for 3 days. i had sleepless night figuring how to install it with my groupmate. it was torturing. we actually slept for only a few hours that week. i remembered once, my groupmate, katak felt like eating porrigde at 5am in the morning, so cooked porrigde for us, and there's when i discover *smth*- betta left unsaid. anyway, we finally found some guys to help us with the installation, hehe. that week itself i have 2 projects datelines, both on friday. i oso had my first prom, A-nite in the palace of the golden horses on thursday...



the following week:

3 presentations, actually it's 1 presentation and 2 demo. everything went fine. *praise God* i got 10/10 for my freeBSD demo. hehe.. if i'm not wrong i think i had a test on that week too. (too many tests ade, can't really remember the date) the paper was BAD.



the following week:

which is this week, i had one test, (AGAIN) on thursday, i think i didn't do very well too. i think i'm kind of getting off track, like i do not know how to study. i think i've lost the way to smart study. i need to learn the methods, i need to SCORE.



today::

today, i had 6 hours class. everything went perfectly fine, until my LAB TEST! it was horrible.. horrible... :( i wonder how many marks will i get out of 10. i had the tot of extending my studies to one more semester, this sem seems to be so tuff.. 7 subjects, not sure how am i goin to handle it. cos i'm still blur in some of the subjs. and FINALS is just around the corner.



i gotta get some sleep now. goodniteeess....

an astounding night to remember .: an intimate evening with Mariah Carey, Charmbracelat world tour, 2004 :.

i really enjoyed myself thruout the whole concert, eventhough i had to wait for almost one and a half hour for the concert start (why? cos we have to wait for our V VIP, Agong) the concert was amazing, her voice was as melodious as before.. throughout the whole concert, she wore only one outfit, she said "i have to play by the rule, sorry if i'm being boring" It's very kind of her to respect our government, however, i would prefer her to change to a least a few costumes. I sat at VIP block 2 row N #1, with my fren, joanne, and another 2 sisterswho had won the "Mariah Carey SMS contest", Hui Lin and Hui Ming. it was an instant bonding, cos four of us are HUGE fans of Mariah. It seemed that not many people who are seated at the VIP seats know her songs, mm.. maybe like 30% of them know her songs really well, so, when four of us sang along wif her, those ppl around was like.. ~wow, these girls really know her songs well~ kekekek.. it's really like a dream come true to see her perfome , especially here, in Malaysia. i really like all the songs that she sung tat nite.. however, tat's this one song that really really inspire me... and gives me a betta picture of her, is "Saving My Grace". She said tis songs means a lot to her, and she wrote it. As she sing tis song, the big screen shows some of her clips, like the time when she broke down, and how finally how she pull through . the song made my heart ache. i think the song is a thanksgiving song.It shows of how the Lord had delivered her from dilemma, how God has strengthen her throughout her journey of life...



********

my saving grace

I've still got a lot to learn

But, at least I know where I can turn

When I'm in my times of need

Just as long

(As I know all things are possible)

Just as long as I believe



I've loved a lot, hurt a lot

Been burned a lot in my life and times

Spent precious years wrapped up in fear

With no end in sight

Until my saving grace shined on me

Until my saving grace set me free



Giving me peace

Giving me strength when I'd

Almost lost it all

Catching my every fall

I still exist because you keep me safe

I found my saving grace within you



Yes, I've been bruised

Grew up confused

Been destitute

I've seen life from many sides

Been stigmatized

Been black and white

Felt inferior inside

Until my saving grace shined on me

Until my saving grace set me free



Giving me peace

Giving me strength when I'd

Almost lost it all

Catching my every fall

I still exist because you keep me safe

I found my saving grace within you



And the bountiful things that you do

Lord thank you

For delivering me



And giving me peace

Giving me strength

Giving me hope when I'd

Almost lost it all

Catching my every fall

I still exist because you keep me safe

Always my saving grace

Pulls me through

I found my saving grace within you



(Yes you are - you're my every, everything)

Within you...

(Only, only you)

Yes lord

(Only you)

My saving grace lord is

You



********



she actually ended the concert with the song "butterfly", but she didn't even perform the song "hero". When she walked into backstage as the light turned off, almost every audience, stood up and shouted "we want more". i think after few minutes, she walked out wif the songs "vision of love" and "hero". everyone was overjoyed and sang along with her. They ran to the front to get a closer view of her. we didn't do tat, cos we'll be meeting her backstage anyway. kkekekeke..



after the concert ended, we went to the Mandarin Oriented Hotel to meet her, cos the stadium was too hot for her. i guess she went back to shower. the Tm-net representative, was very kind to bring us to the hotel. finally we reached the hotel, we can only see her for 5 mins, go in in a batch of 10persons, ithink around 20 persons got the chance to see her. But when we see her, we are not allowed to hug her, to take photos wif her nor to take her autograph.



as we were waiting outside the room, she came down from the escalator with her bodyguard cum manager (i dunno his name, but he has got HUGE biceps), i was waving at her, and we shouted her name as she walked into the room. she was wearling a long black dress.



when it was my time to see her, i wen straight to shake her hands and asking for a hug. hehe. but the bodyguard said "No, no, NO HUGS", then i passed her the gifts i've made for her, and kept talking to her, and the bodyguard said "photo first, then only gifts, understand" he even asked me to look at him and listen to him. *bweks* I stood just right beside her when we were taking photograph, then i whispered to her, "can i have your autograph", joanne did the same thing, cos i wen in with her. but the bodyguard heard it, again he said, "No no, no autograph". Mariah Carey, gave us the helpless look, showing that she was sorry. But i just, i think i whine at her saying "pleeeeaseeeee". She was soo kind and sweet, she said "alrite, quickly, where's the pen" then she signed for us. soo sweeeeeeeeet riteee :) i think only joanne and i got her signature, i'm not sure about other fans though, but my frens, hui lin and hui ming went in after us, didn't get to shake her hands. I was wondering, if it is caused by our disobidient. It was a really sweet nite..






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thank you GOD for answering my prayers *AMEN*

God has been so good to me, granting all my prayers. :) I had won 2 VIP seats and backstage passes to Mariah Carey concert in Stadium Merdeka yesterday. The concert was GREAT, really, she really got a beautiful voice. hehe... anyway, one week before the concert, i tried to enter the mix fm "Mariah Mania" contest, to win VIP seats, as well as backstage passes, plus A TRIP TO DUBAI to catch her concert on 26 feb, including RM1000 spending money. I had to wait for the "cue to call" everyday for last week, the feeling was indescribleable, it was a mixture of, excitement, happy, sad and dissapointment. Happy was because, it's time for the cue to call, and i have the chance to be the grand prize winner for MIX fim, that's if i get thru the line which is so damn hard to get thru. At the same week, i had FOUR tests and ONE presentation, i seriously dunno how i survived through that, but i guess God had been gracious enough to survived me through it. I had no worries at all, i was at peace most of the time, doing what i can do today and not worrying about what will happen tomorrow. Anyway as the date of concert gets nearer, and i still haven't get my ticket, my god-sis has decided to give a treat to her concert, knowing tat i couldn't affort it. *so sweet, rite* So, i bought the ticket, which costed RM268. ACTually, i tot of upgrading the ticket to 388, cos my fren will be goin for the 388 one, but before i did tat, i got a call from bluehyppo, saying tat i've WON the GRAND PRIZE!!*praise GOD* it's truly amazing, cos when i asked them, the senior editor from bluehyppo who called me,Marina, for the second highest point for the contest, cos i tot i've got the highest point. Marina said another guy got higher points than me,but the thing is , he has got only one streamyx account, so, they disqualified him, i've got 7, and they chose me to be the winner!! *Praise God* . The girls who are incharge of the contest are Marina and Sheena, they had been a blessing to me. On thursday, Marina asked me if i would like to see MARIAH from Klia , i said yes, and they fetched me to klia wif another fren of mine. After the concert, we were supposed to meet Mariah backstage, but it was too hot for her, so she went back to the hotel first, and we are to meet her from the hotel. Marina and Sheena went to the hotel wif me. When we reached there, other winners who got backstage passes from Metrojaya and 98.8 fm , asked us how we get there, cos they have to go there all by themselves. they were so envious of us, cos we were so well-treated by the tm-net staff. *GOD is good rite*.. and finally.. i met ms Mariah Carey..... :)

friends forever...

i had a gathering wif my exschoolmates yesterday in midvalley. 6 of us.. it's so nice to meet the rest.. we went to nando's for lunch, then shop, took pictures, and went to kim gary for dinner. some of us had not been meeting since last year. one of my fren was back from australia, and she together with another fren came down from taiping for this gathering.. *how sweet*. as time goes by, it's ade the third year since we left school, and most of us have grown more matured. we become more tolerate to one another as we only meet once a year. :)

i wan to go to mariah carey's concert!!

tried to enter the contest in mix fm that gave away free tickets to mariah carey's contest. borrowed my fren's phone to listen to the radio when i was in the class. then i heard MC's song, and tot that the contest is starting.. so i called up mix fm, and left the class.. manatau.. they were just playing her song, it's not the contest :(. after that i dare not to go in to the class

hehe