emo people

..repel me..

urgh.. i'm surrounded by "emos".
.sulky face.i-refuse-to-talk-to-u face.emo.emo.emo

hate it.

i think i'm in an emo state for this post.

maybe i too.. am the emo one.

ahh..well.. a few emo posts wouldn't hurt.

urgh.. i'm not goin to get this emo thingie get into me~
i'm gonna enjoy the wedding dinner tonight..

off... to Taiping...

..where the Sulu Sea and South China Sea meet..

..at the tip of Borneo..

I was at the Tip of Borneo, where the Sulu Sea and the South China Sea meet, and the furthest I’ve ever been in my whole 22 years of life. :) two days ago.

The scenery was breathtaking and 2 and a half hour of journey from KK is definitely worth it. Well, I was not the one driving :p Audrey was the one behind the wheel.

The trip to the land beneath the wind had been very exciting and fun! I’m really thankful for those who are so kind to house Michelle and I during our stay in Sabah. I really really enjoyed myself very much. And I’m really touched by their warm hospitality.
Hours and hours spent by driving us up..

Karlson, Nina, Audrey ~ thank you sooo much for accommodating us in your lovely home and for the troubles of bringing us around KK.

Karlson~ for the Tapai, for driving us for hours to Kundasang-Tampurali-Ranau-Tambunan-Penampang. Thank you and your family for the makan-makan session.

Nina ~ It has been great knowing you. Thank you so much for being such an easy-going girl,so easy to get along with. Thank you and your family for accommodating us. I had lots of fun with ya – karaoke-ing.

Audrey~ for driving us around KK, all the way to the Tip of Borneo, to the Rungus Longhouse, Kudat. Thank you and your family for seafood, for the walk at the Sutera Harbour, for the trip to Kudat.

Jill~ Thank you for bringing us around with Karlson and bringing us to the Padas rafting!. It has been a pleasure knowing you.

Dayzee ~ enjoyed your companion so much! Thank you for bringing us to the Sapi Island and for spending time touring around with us.

Jean, Sharul ~ Thanks for driving us around :)

Mich ~ for inviting me along this tour :p

Celine ~ I enjoyed your bubbly companion a lot!

Benny~ for the 1G SD memory card!!! :)

You guys are fantastic.I had so much fun and laughter together with you people. You guys rocks! :)

Thank you, thank you and thank you..

Above all, thank God for the provision, accommodation, cheap flight, great food, wonderful friends and an amazing trip to Sabah.

The summary of my trip :

Day 1 : Monsopiad Cultural Village . Makan-makan at Karlson’s house
Day 2 : Adventure drive to Kinabalu Park-Desa Dairy Farm-Poring Hotwater Spring- Canopy Walk
Day 3 : Penampang Tamu-USM-KK Town
Day 4 : Sapi Island – Centre Point
Day 5 : Tuaran Town-Karoake at Nina’s house-Clubbing
Day 6 : North Borneo train - Whitewater Rafting at Padas
Day 7 : R&R at Nina’s place – Damai Club (Karaoke)- Audrey’s place
Day 8 : KK town – UMS – Signal Hill – Wisma Merderka
Day 9 : The Tip of Borneo – Bavanggazo Rungus Longhouse
Day 10 : Kudat market – KL (yay~)

the circled ones are those places i've been :D

flowers for eechia :)

from michelle.. :x

:)

migraine

I had an encounter with classical migraine or migraine with aura, 3 years ago.

dizzied. blurred vision .nausea. sleep. excruciating headache. vomited.

"Aura" refers to the non-headache features of migraines.

In classical migraine or migraine with aura the attack is preceded or succeeded by a group of specific symptoms called aura, most commonly experienced as a visual disturbance prior to the attack. Aura usually lasts less than 60 minutes, and in those who suffer classical migraine there is generally little time between the onset of aura and the onset of the attack

An example of aura accompanying a classical migraine attack is a multicolored zig-zag pattern which grows from a small dot until it covers a large part of the visual field of one eye (sometimes both). Other types of visual aura involve distortions in perception of color, such as color bleeding or the appearance of halos, or as a white spot in the visual field, similar to when a camera flash temporarily "blinds" your vision. While the most common type of aura is visual, it can manifest as any specific neurological symptom complex. Some experience tingling sensations called paresthesias or disturbances of other regions of the brain (such as language ability or smell) instead of a visual aura, either as an occasional alternate or as their normal aura. Aura need not be related to the five senses: many migraineurs experience a prodrome, a vague feeling that things are just not right. While the types and severity of aura can be extremely diverse, a given sufferer will generally experience similar manifestations of aura with each migraine attack.

Recently I had been very sensitive to light and had a few occasional of headaches.

I hope it’s not migraine.

:(

evelyn dahh-ling, happy birthday ;)

Evelyn :p

:)

my best friend,my tai lo, my "evil" friend, evelyn is turning 22 today ;)

We've known each other for almost 10 years! Were in the same class for 3 years. enjoyed it.
The last time was during f4, where she sat next to me. As usual, she likes to "kacau"(disturb) me.
we call each other names and pinched each other almost everyday while fighting in the class. occasionally complained to our teachers :p (not all the teacher, only to mr voon and sometimes mr tan :p)

She has turned into a beautiful young lady :p. very lady-like and "si man" now, very opposite from her secondary school image, where everyone called her "tai-lo" :p hahaha..

So now she's in UK. i hope she gets my text message.

miss you. hope to see you soon :p

during the one of the final days in school. THAT is my BIKE! i rode to school during F5.

Picture taken by Mr Voon :)

In Chilli, during one of our recent meet-up before she leave for UK.

Two roses for you, have a blessed birthday, i love you ;p

rose, anyone? :p

Bought some roses from the Luther Chapel House today during one of thier fund raising event, after church.
Gave some to friends and 2 to myself :p

Yes,i gave myself roses.. i think it's kinda fun to reward yourself with something once a while or surpise your friends with lil' gifts.

I like to do that.

:)

:: Walking down the memory lane :: .Lata Gugup.

Yesterday, I called Mr Koo , my secondary school teacher who taught me arts when i was in F2, to invite him for Limei's wedding on behalf of her. Limei wants to invite both Mr Koo and Mr Voon as well.

Mr Voon, was my photography sifu and my F5 form teacher, my add math and physics teacher. He was also our school official photographer and the advisor of the photography club. He always plans wonderful trips for us during school holidays. Sometimes, for weekends, just to chill out after our exams.

We had our frequent trips to Lata Gugup. It's a private farm owns by Mr Voon's friend in Taiping. The place has a small water fall, a double story ‘frame’ house, and a toilet. The double story house is built of wood and it’s not fully covered. It doesn’t have walls. The lower part is a kitchen and the upper area is the place where we sleep. The place has a power generator too.

We normally stay for one night there. In the day time, we would play with the water and at night we’ll normally have BBQ. Mr Koo would bring us some lamb chop, one of his specialties. And we would have feast all night long! After that we’ll talk, play cards or sing. Mr Voon will bring his guitar and play, some times we sang along with him. :p

We normally stayed up till wee hours chit-chatting and laughing away. The next morning, we’ll cook our favorite maggi mee or eat the left-over from the BBQ. It was really fun!

I took these pictures from my photo album with my digi cam, so the quality is not very good :p too lazy to scan, i don't have a scanner anyway.. the photos from our last Lata Gugup trip back in 2000. As always, Mr Voon is there to capture those moments~

After a tired game~

I think we were playing human-tug-a-war or something. it was kinda stupid. haha.. but we had fun~!

1,2....jump~!

..having fun in the water~

Clockwise :
1st pic : me posing, i think i remember mr voon said, there would be some special effect for this take. some fish-view-photo thingie..
2nd pic : haha, Mr Voon always has idea of taking nice pictures, so there were we, the five of us posing according to his direction, he said it would be a beautiful picture.
3rd pic: me and jayne :p

ahh.. I miss Lata Gugup. Maybe we can plan trips to Lata Gugup again, anyone?

during our class farewell party back in 2000, Mr Voon is the only guy in the photo ;)

During Mr Voon's retirement (2001) , the card that i highlighted is made by jayne and i, we spent 8 hours non-stop working on that piece of art. That.. is my school hall..

Canmy,Jayne, Mr & Mrs Koo with thier daughter at Kelly Castle, during our Ipoh trip

Best of friends~ at Taiping Lake Garden. Captured by Mr Voon, 2000.

.on working.

Sunset over Java Island from aircraft

Today is Saturday, and I’m in my lab (the place I work :p). Well, I’m starting to enjoy my working environment. This place I work at is really not so bad at all. Let’s see..

I get to come in late.
I get to avoid the bustling city traffic as I work in a real secluded area called the cyber-jungle-jaya.
There’s a bank in my workplace, which is very convenient to me, I could cash in/out money anytime I like.
There’s a bank of books called the Siti Hasmah Digital Library with all the reference books if I ever need any.
The food here are cheaper compared to the city.
I get to go for lunch anytime I like :p
I can come to the lab anytime I want; midnight, early morning, weekends, or holidays
I get a FREE copy of The Star every morning :p
I have many; I mean MANY annual leaves ;))
I get to watch TV or series when I'm bored :p

I get to attend the CF and the bible study.
I get to stay with my friends.
I’m enjoying life.
.

Every time when people asked me, “so what do you do?” I’ll tell them I’m a contract system analyst (SA). Then they’ll ask, “oh, so what language do you use?”

That is the part I hate to answer.

I’m here to continue developing on the previous SA’s work. So, I didn’t involve in the system design and architecture. I just practically “chap sau mei” (continuing others left over work). Initially this project is supposed to end in December, I came in Mid-June. So, I would only have six months to do what that’s left over. But now, they have extended the project for another 3 months. Come this April, I’ll be jobless.

The system I’m dealing with now involves PHP, VB.net, Visual C++ with MFC and Java!!! Don’t ask me why, ask the previous SA.

Urgh..

When I first knew about it, I was wondering how on earth I am going to integrate a program visual C++ with another program in Java! Somehow, I managed.

I’m a Java fan, I prefer to program in Java, and I really hated it when I need to learn vb.net and visual C++ as well. But thankfully, I have an online sifu who has been there to help over emails and IM. *thor jie thor jie* (thank you).

I do not have anyone to guide me on the program development here. My project manager doesn’t do coding while my supervisor doesn’t really care, most of the time I talk to him on the IM. So, I’m very much on my own, working at my own pace, exploring things myself, working independently.

I’m now studying on Java design pattern..~soon. :x

*today super suey(bad luck), I accidentally hit my right hand on the sink in the morning (my poor finger) and I burnt my left hand’s index finger while I was making milo. Arrrghhhh!

.changed.

Current Read: The Jesus I Never Knew by Philip Yancey

I have been reading “The Jesus I never Knew” for almost four months. I’m still reading, hoping to finish it soon. As I started to reexamine my faith, I’ve decided to start with Jesus. I want to learn more about him. What is it in him that attracts many? What can I learn from him? Who is him?

Along my learning curve, I’ve met a few mentors and had a few “conversations” on IM with friends which have enlightened me in many ways. I believe that I didn’t stumble upon them by chance, but somehow some divine intervention. Yet, as I search more, I find myself drifting away from the invisible God I once recognized.

My Christian walk has taken a new twist. I think I am no longer the same person who takes in what others say, three years ago. Slowly, I’ve learnt to see things in the different light, and not believing in everything literally.

My friends have posted their thoughts on religions in their blogs. And they perceived Christians as those who go around trying to convert others, some to the extend of forcing. Some said it’s almost like MLM. Some said they are annoyed when Christians said “believe or hell you shall go”. I think I was once categorized as those “Christians”, maybe not so persistent. I never fully understood what it really means to be a Christ- follower.

Some said that prayers give hope to those who are in despair, those who doesn’t know what tomorrow may brings, those who have lost their loved ones, those who has lost their hope, those who are lost. I once wondered if religions are man-made belief to console themselves that there is indeed a greater force that is in control….I am still wondering. Haha.

I became a more “flexible believer”, at this point I am very much a confused Christian. Isn’t it obvious from my contradiction points? Yet, I chose to continue on this spiritual journey, believing in God though I have my doubts.

My next read is the book “Reaching for the Invisible God” by Philip Yancey.

change of tide..

i'm happy. today is a productive day in office. i have so many stuff in mind which i want to blog about, but i do not really have the time. i hope i'll soon..

just when i started to get myself organised into the working mode,in a few days time, i'll be flying off to sabah :( not that i'm not looking forward for the trip, i do. but another part of me wanted to get the works done as soon as possible.

i am really working, not playing with the camera :p

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

..awaken..

we were walking across the longest bridge in Cambodia

it's 1am, i'm tired. every ounce of my body asking me to give in to my exhaustion. but i must not! too much work piling up waiting to be done. i've procrastinate too long. everytime i told myself i'm gonna start doing, i slacked. recently,i did some catching up... pretty slowly....crawling...

i've "awaken" from an disillusion..

..i hope i'm doing fine..

driving across the border..

I didn’t drive for some 300km from KL to Penang, but I did drove for about 60km across the two states, Perak and Selangor. THAT is a milestone for me :p *grin*

I knew deep down in my heart that my mum wouldn’t have let me drive so far, even though she agreed the night before. Well, all I wanted to do was to ease her burden on driving. I know driving can be very tiring, especially when she has driven from JB to KL the night before. I wanted her to relax and enjoy the ride while I drive :D

Ironically, she was more pressured and tension when she sat on the passenger seat beside me. Her hand was constantly holding on the handbrake, ready to pull it every time I overtook a vehicle. She said I move too much to the right, almost banging the divider :p

How was the feeling to be behind the wheel for the first time in the highway? PRESSURED! I felt rather anxious and pressured. Somehow, when I was driving, the images of me banging another car or the divider keep flashing in my mind. Boy, I was agitated. I kept praying for safety while I was driving.

Thank God we reached penang safely.

next stop : Taiping!!

wheee..~~ food food~~

will be stopping in Taiping before goin back to KL later.. i mean soon.. :p

Penang..here i come~

Tomorrow, I'll be making my maiden voyage by driving to Penang...

*i'm feeling a bit jittery*

Please pray for me :D

..friends forever..

Back (L-R) von,canmy,laiyi (Miss Malaysia Universe 1st Runner Up 2005 :p),shirley(sasa),Limei (the married lady :p),yanhui, kaisim
Front (L-R): eechia, lihua

Last weekend I went back to Taiping for Canmy’s birthday cum gathering.

Incidentally, the ex-mmuCfers had a gathering in Marche Movenpick Marcher, One Utama last Saturday. I wanted to attend that gathering as much as i want to go back to Taiping.

I guess we can’t have both best things at once.. Thus, I need to forgo either one. As I’ve promised Canmy to go back, I decided to skip my first ex-mmuCfers gathering.

Most of us rushed back to Taiping from KL, while Limei traveled for 10 long hour’s journey from Singapore to Taiping on Saturday. I was astonished when I heard that she’s coming back (even though she was advised not to by her parents), she needs to return to Singapore the next morning.

Yanhui, too has an early class on Sunday, hence she needs to go back to KL the next morning. The willingness of everyone to travel from different places just for this gathering showed how much we treasure this friendship. It is true that we have not met for ages, some as long as five years. We hardly see each other after f5. Most of us go on different path, yet we’re still close at heart.

This reunion, despite of not seeing each other in ages, we chatted away happily like yesteryears. The topic had indeed changed, from study to work to relationship then to marriage. And it was really a girl talk.

We slept over in Canmy’s house, chatted until 5am. And woke up early morning the following day for breakfast at our famous Kakak restaurant for ‘kuey teow thi’ng’

After breakfast we sent Limei and Yanhui off to the bus station.

Even though our path may never cross again, I’m glad that we take the effort to keep in touch and update each others on our lives.

Indeed, friends are like wines, they get better with age.

*more pics soon

Limei has uploaded all the pictures in her blog, here